Life huh?
Friday, 3 May 2013, ϟ 0 shout(s)
Life as a student- great!
SOOOOOO,
my life just gooo so well well very well, guess what?
I've just entered Naim lilbanat. Like omfg, r u fucking kidding meeeeee.
That's so nice, everyone semua cam baik baik I love it.
My class pon also boleh tahan la, Friends, teachers.
The feelings, I just cant describe.
It's like the mixture of happy+sad+excited
wow idk...
The school is so cantik one, Haaa.
the building
don't you see how proud am I
to be one of warga naim? Like omg,
I just cant still fucking believe it...
Hm, lupa nak mention about the seniors!
Tadaaaaaa~
Dapat all this paper, Hehehe.
Idk what they think about me, but
yeahh thanks laa :)
And my love one,
Babyyyyy, you light up
my world like nobody elsee!
Naww, Hm you are my sunshine,
my only sunshineee<3
Forever, I love youuu bitch.
Thanks for everything tau!
our relationship WILL never dies. I hope.
xo
What else eh about my school life.
err.
That's all kot..
Yaa, what ever!
Naimians and proud-
I hope you read this tho
Sunday, 30 December 2012, ϟ 0 shout(s)
Dear Childhood Friend,
Properly being with you again has made me realize how much things have changed. Not only between us, but within me as well. Things just aren’t the same anymore, yet you still seem to be the child you were a million years ago.
I miss you though. You were always so outgoing, cheerful and enthusiastic. Remember the time we’d waste together? I remember one of the days perfectly. It was at your old house and we played cards then went out into your garden to catch moths. And in your basement you thought you saw a “beast” in the corner so you screamed “beast!” and we ran up the wooden stairs to seek protection from your grandma. There are many more details to this memory but I wonder if you remember it too? I really hope you do because they make me smile.
I used to be like you - enthusiastic and happy but things changed and recently I’ve almost forgotten who I was. I miss the old me and I know everybody else who’s ever met me would’ve missed that me too. Maybe if we had stayed close you could’ve had a positive effect on the darker areas of my life but you moved to the other side of the world for a few years. I can see that you found yourself during those years and became even more wonderful. I think that was probably the best experience ever for you, and while you were having the time of your life, I was falling. A lot of things happened to me while you were gone and I was completely alone. I became an entirely different person and I didn’t even notice. I wasn’t the innocent, carefree kid I was anymore. Instead, I became a ten-year old with massive responsibilities and overwhelming worries. Maybe I grew up and you didn’t in some ways.
Tonight I know that your mother realized that I had grown up - I saw it in the way she looked at me. I miss her too and I miss your grandma. Dear, I wish you had never left and I had never grown up. I miss our childhood.
Love, Me
Life.
Tuesday, 20 November 2012, ϟ 0 shout(s)
Some days i feel a thousand different
emotions all at once.
Other days i am nothing but numb.
I am tired of this rollercoaster
masquerading as my life
Stop the ride.
I want to get off.
Friend?
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I thought she was my best friend. The best one I ever had. Instead I found out the truth. And what I learned was sad. We still call each other "friend". But I feel we're far apart. Thought we see each other every day. I have a broken heart. She has made a new friends. And I have made some too. We are talking less and less. And inside I'm cold and blue. Each and every night I pray. That she will finally see. How much I want our friendship back. And how much she means to me x
x
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If you’re a girl and you hit, punch, or physically harm your boyfriend in any way it’s still considered abuse and you’re equally as much of a piece of shit as any guy that hits his girlfriend. Seriously the amount of girls that disagree with this is ridiculous, and they’re all fucking stupid. Sorry not sorry.
I notice.
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I notice everything. And by everything, I literally mean everything. I notice when someone stops hitting me up like they used to. I notice when the way someone talks to me starts changing. I notice the little things that people do, and the little things they used to do. I notice when things change, and when it’s no longer the same. I notice every single little detail. I just don’t say anything. And then suddenly, for no reason, everything started to fall apart, too quickly to fix.
:)
Saturday, 17 November 2012, ϟ 0 shout(s)
new past